Archive for May, 2015|Monthly archive page

What’s the Point?

Seriously. What’s the point in even trying any longer? I am getting sick and tired of applying for positions that will never employ me.

I had an interview last week for my ideal job. Admin assistant for the music department in a prestigious school. I have been in tears since I found out yesterday that I didn’t get it. I am so tired of trying and not getting anywhere.

It has been 14 months of trying. With my skills and abilities and experience, I should have been employed by now. And yet…. I sit here, still having to go through the charade of applying for jobs every week. Most employers don’t even bother to get in touch with you at all.

I am sick of being told that I ‘impressed’ them. Clearly not enough. I am sick of being told that I am ‘over qualified’ because we all know that is rubbish. What they really mean is I am too old, but they can’t actually say that because if they did I would be able to sue them for age discrimination. I’ve done everything I can. Completed courses, fasted, prayed, applied for job. All for nothing.

I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t want to go out. I just want this to stop.